Heavy, cold, clanking

The chains drag behind

Exhaustion ensues quickly

And continuously

Cannot stop, always rushing

Tepid metal rubbing, chaffing

Longing for freedom

From the willful chains

Wrapped all around me

What does it look like?   

To be free of these chains?

Wonder, imagine, dream

What a life that would be!

Magic, light, whimsical and bright

Could I ever be free?

Stepping toward what looks like freedom

Shattered

Sounds of breaking glass

Surprised at the wondrous sound

Swivel to see

Could it be real?

Revving into a speedy run

Airy, dancing fun

Unfolding space 

No more bounds

Smiling, joy, amazing fresh air

Peace

Sudden panic

Floating too high

Growing too fast

Upper limit

“Take a deep breath” 

A voice from within

“You can control it,

How fast, how high, it’s yours for the taking,

Just keep breathing and stay connected”

Inhale

Exhale

Inhale 

Exhale

Stillness. Peace. Gently floating.

Looking back it is clear as day

It was I who kept myself imprisoned

The arbitrary chains were in my imagination

Light & Dark

Necessary are light and dark
Both bring beauty, life
All are welcome here.

B

Your creative spirit surrounds my soul
uplifting my body
I stand a little taller
Capturing my attention
you bring me back to the moment
slowing down I can see the code
the matrix of the universe
gliding through reality
creatively playing with space, time and our bodies
your touch sparks the essence of my being
streams of energy flowing through my veins
exuding aliveness you tap into my flow
my chest expands with joy
the experience of connecting with a human
on this conscious level
reminds me to be

Ever

Nothing is permanent
everything will be
the journey is life
life is change
Nothing is permanent

Love is.
Becoming one's self
is the journey at play
play through life
Live love.

Repudiate

heavy
disheartened
my chest constricts
as my eyes try not to well up
thud...thud....thud
my heartbeat sounds
as though it can't trudge on
I gasp for air
realizing I forgot to breathe
trying not to sound disappointed
as I quickly get away
to crawl deep within myself
and hide for fear that it will catch up
if I hide in a hole
maybe then it won't find me
maybe then I can escape
the wretched grasp,
the grip of rejection

Expansion

a space inside expands
tingles start in my core
and extend to my extremities
my chest augments
lub dub....lub dub...lub dub
the sound almost audible
of my heart beating on
openness in the throat
tempting the vocal chords
to sing a chorus of alleluia
lightening of the head
lifting up as feathers in the wind
my whole body afloat
as if gravity couldn't touch me
this is how it feels to be one
with the universe
this is how it feels when
I love myself

Divorce

I was standing there
frozen
not really all that surprised
the arguing and dissension
had been happening for months
the waves of emotion
threatened to take over
but the void of numbness
overruled
Going back in time
I can hear the faint screams
"How can you not be crying?"
my sister begged for some emotion
my twelve-year-old self knew to stay strong
I couldn't change what was happening
Bravery and strength were what we needed

Now thirty, looking back
I see that brave little girl
she did what she knew to be best
and I love her for that
but something died inside her
the day her family fell apart